ok.. hmm today was a pretty slow day, i woke up late from an early sleep. ((i apologize again for passing out on your phone calls and text last night baby, i was dead like a log last night)) I havent had such a dreamless, thougthless night sleep like that in a long time... i kinda dont like it.. usually.. my gf would be in it doing god knows what. lol.. or.. itd be some random thing like me being super hero... going to work with no pants on... things of those nature.. its hard to explain.. whaha but yeah... soo after class.. i just went to blockbuster and i got my favorite chickflick. "Definitely, Maybe"
see i dont think guys are supposed to have a favorite, but this one is different. I like it so much cause.. it kinda reminds me of some of the things i went through... lol.. specially with my boobface. plus.. isla fisher is hot. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
but yeah... I think in my younger more immature days.. i was a lil man-slut. X] i dunno what the actuall term they call a guy slutting around is.. gigolo? i have no idea.. but yeah.. i had so many gfs and.. i kinda laugh at how stupid and needy i was or something? i dunno why i had so many gf.. and i dunno why i'm so nice to them.. up to now they are still my friends.. i dont know why i dont have the usuall result of hating an ex or not talking to them at all... i just tend to be nice and have that forgive and forget kind of philosophy. its complicated-ish??.. ((how many times did i say "i dunno" in that paragraph??))
but yeah... back in the days, i met this boobface girl who stole me away from my current gf at that time and ever since then i thought she was the best thing that ever came across my path. But after time went by, it seemed that i was loosing her cause of school, stress and other guys giving her more attention?? well with all that going on in my head... some how i came up with the stupid conclusion that, i need to break it of with this girl now so that when things get worst she wouldnt get badly hurt.. so.. i broke it off with her... and.. ever since then.. she would pop in my mind and i would wonder what she was doing, or who shes is with.. i still had her number, but... i wouldnt dare give her a text or call.. i felt like i will disturb the peace if i did that.. soo i waited a loong time.. a really long time.. and realized it was the worst thing i could ever do to a girl i really liked...
in that time period.. i had other gf's.. but they werent the same.. i cant ever talk to those girls like the way i talked to that boob face.. it was a lame feeling each time she came in my mind cause shes probably out there livin the life with some hottie.. ugh... but eyahh.. after some more time.. i decided to actually start talking to her again.. i dunno why i did that but.. i think it was the best thing i ever did.. i made a terrible mistake letting her go back then... and i hoped and hoped that maybe there is a chance that i can still make up for what i did...
at first it was just little txt like "hi, whats up?" little chitter chatter then i would wait a while again and go and txt her again, i have no good reason for doing that... i have tendency to appear and reappear.. ><; but yeah after a while i started talking more and more again and.. then.. this movie came out.. it was like early 2008 when this movie came out and me and her were like good friends again.. and suddenly i saw this movie.. and.. it brought back all these frikkin gay emotions when i saw the guy kept running into his exes and all that drama in it and.. T.T.... it just made me think of boobface and what i did and exes and all that.. D: after watching that movie.. it got me thinking about her and i think i started to get that same old feelings i had for her.. i really liked her soo much back then.. and i just kept myself on the downlow cause at the moment she had a bf...
well to make this short and to try and get a point out ... lol... this movie.. brought out my gay feeligns for my boobface anddd now she still makes me feel lame each time she mentions what i did, but its working out at the moment, we may have our bad days but we manage to make it through... right now... shes sleepign on the phone while i'm typing this.. and im getting very sleepy.... sooooo.. i'll shut up now.. and call it a night. no more ranting...
lool btw.. the music playing right now is from that soundtrack of that moovie.. i think it sounds nice soo just.. enjoy it. :D ey ey ey ey you guys should watch it too. xD might bring out gay feelings aswell! whahahahaha
ciao ciao.. :]<3.
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babe, i miss you and love you soo much...
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