allergies are finally dying down.

lol for the past couple of months.. all ive been looking at is the road. xD hahah time to take a break from it all.. haha i'm just here for summer.. i wont be going anywhere too far cause ive got some stuff to do before my classes start up again.

soo far my break has been pretty quiet, ive been at the basketball court atleast once a day. I need the excercise.. i'm getting kinda tooooo chubby to my liking. its pretty noticable now i think and i dont like it.. soo i'ma loose that keg and get back my packs. hahahaha.. i need beach body!! XD... i dont want to look like a whale at the beach.. loll.. oh well.. but yeahh.. been bballing.. i never really got into basketball back then but i'm starting to like it.. haha it seems that i can shoot pretty good. hahaha.. well.. its improving. and basketball has got me weezing like a crazy mofo. good to get my cardiovasculars worked up.. haha..

ummm other than bball.. i've been doing reviews for 30 minutes or so a day.. i messed up in my schooling and i need to do more than better this coming sem.. ugh.. thinking about it making me depressed..

i.. uhhh.. ive been doing art lately.. just experimenting and i've been doing designs for my room. i dont have a super impressive room to begin with.. its just a basic rectangle and a good enough closet to fit most of my clothes.. umm.. soo far.. i got a black template drawn up on paint. hahaha.. soo yeah ive been trying to test out the colors i liked. i'm going to make it have that cafe feel to it. i got my light browns and dark browns figured out but.. it seems to still be missing something..

i've got an idea for furnitures too.. i decided that instead of buying the furniture.. i'll go and test out my carpentry and art skills. hahaha.. ive got a legit coffee table design i sketched out.. and i just need materials.. i got lighting fixtures and what not designed too. as for my bed.. ima keep it low to the ground. hahaha well.. over all.. i'm going for the cafe feel cause.. it makes me all relax and.. just chill.. i got lil couch designed as well.. since the room is not too big.. the furniture being custom made will make work out.. sometimes you find the furniture you want.. but it might be too big.. soooo yeah.. custom ftw~!

lol.. as for my friends in japan.. they saw zac effron guy and that hudgens girl there.. lol.. i'm not into them at all. soo yeah.. hahhaha some of my other friends are going to go to the phillipines. thats fun stuff.. i wish i could go with them.. oh well..

welllllllll.. i'm trying to turn over a new leaf this summer... doing my cna this june or july.. so till then.. i'm trying to apply at target or whatnot.. lol.. i need pocket money for times when i go out. hahaha.. and all these grad parties arent helping me out at all..

well thats it for now.. hmmm.. hopefully something exciting happens this summer.. haha.. ohh uhh memorials day weekend is coming up soon.. haha we might either have a cook out or i might go to the beach since the parents are goign to tenessee (spelling??) for the weekend. i'm also looking for new phones. ugh prefereably.. ones that over seas.. since i like them better.. hahaha.. any ideas? @_@ something that could work with AT&T....

summer is about to start..

ive been out for a semester or soo.. dang.. i'll update after my last exam.. haha which is tomorow!. yuss! soo far.. not all my exams were successful.. looks like i need to take anatomy over again. so far in life.. i've been able to accomplish everything i needed.. but this time i think i found my kryptonite.. i'm gonna get through it somehow.. i just need to re-orient, re-organize, and re-vamp myself..

i've been the one always to bounce back up after any failure but.. for soemreason.. i'm just having a hardtime this time.. i dont know if its my parents nagging or what.. butt its different. almost feel like i really wasted some effort to just get something puny.. but you know.. ive got to get over it.

oh well.. soo as for some summer plans.. i'm planning on hitting the gym.. taking a summer program.. start to play basketball with the bros and improve my pool skills.. hahaha.. i played pool the other night and i noticed i've lost some of my touch. XD

my friends are going to japan tomorow.. i'll be dropping them off at the airport tomorow.. they are going to stay there for 2 weeks.. i hope they brought enough cash.. lol the girls want to buy everything..

thats as far as i got for updates.. for now.. i am too bummed out to upload pictures from my camera, i'll just do that later when i'm feeling better..

ciaociao..

Projhek Leesting

SoooO.. It was just valentines weekend and I hope everyone had a nice valentines day even if they are alone. Hehe.. Oh mannn.. I wish I could have done something for my gf.. The distance is just ruining my mojo!!!!.. T^T.. usually.. I outdo myself on days like these with my gf.. Buttt this time.. Ehhh I can only imagine what I can do.. But ohh well.. Hehe I wont say what I had in mind.. I can do it the next chance I get! Heheheheeeee.. But yeah.. Hope every one had a nice weekend..

Ok so yeah, ive decided that instead of wasting myself on videogames and tv I would go out and do some art projects. Ive been pretty busy lately with school and trying to study and review and on my spare time I would be just there on the couch or bed marinating myself in music, tv or the psp. I decided to list the projects and on here soo I can always check back to it and never forget.. Whehe.. Ive got soo much things in my mind that I want to do.. But its either I’m short on material or time and then.. I eventually forget about it.. Soo ok heres my list..

1] Vinyl Project

- find out what how they create original vynil toys. (materials used and company used to mass produce)
- create my own model.
- one day to be able to mass produce and show the world.

2] PanLid Project

- find out what company can fully customize hats. (logo, brims, etc..)
- put my designs on hat.
- create different variations.
- get reviews from local areas.
- mass produce.

3] Plush Project

- improve toy making skills. (sowing, knitting, etc..)
- create a toy that compliment the vynil/hat project.
- reviews.
- mass produce.


4] Cover-Up Project

- improve shirt making techniques. (designs, material, ect..)
- find companies that can customize certain parts. (zippers, tags, ect..)
- find a cheap and reliable printing company.
- create a single logo to use and compliment the other projects.
- reviews.
- mass produce.


5] Fly Kicks Project

- find out how to customize shoes
- make designs
- succesfully design a pair of custom sneakers


6] Draw-Me-Up Project

- get better at drawing
- better designs
- get photoshop
- maybe get a drawing pad??

series of unfortunate events.. :[[[[

soo.. its been a long day for me.. i feel bad for being a lil jerk to gf earlier today.. ugh.. it just things were going wrong and yeah.. nothing helped out the situation...

soo ok first on the list of unfortunate events today was that my car got really dirty while i was driving.. for some unknown reason we have a light drizzle then the windshield starts to turn all gray and nasty looking and the water just didnt help soo when i got to the parking lot... instead of a white honda.. i had a salt and pepper nasty looking ride.. danm.. and i just cleaned it the day before!!!

and then on the way to school a few minutes after i saw my car windshield turn nasty.. i see this guy trying to merge into the road and he nearly took me out in the process.. i really think that the older people get they should just stop getting into cars or even think about buying one! damn mannnn this old lady.. i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! almost took me out of the road and into the other guy's car beside me... mann.. but yehh.. thats second incident..

third incident was when i was already at school and i needed to print out my project in the computer lab before i enter class.. i got there and the whole internet system of the school was down.. sooo i had to drive myself to the nearest library that was 15 minutes away and drive back and i was 30 minutes late to my class......that pissed me off..i hate coming into class late.. you just feel soo damn bad and it was better off that you didnt come in.. but i needed to turn it in...... ugh.. i think i need to buy myself a new printer.....

4th and 5th incident were frikkin pop quizzes in both of my last classes and... that just tripped me out.. after that i was soo pissed.. i was just not feeling it today...

i've been too stressed out lately.. i dunno what to do.. too many things in my mind and.. i dunno how to take them on one at a time.. it just seem to overwhelm me... i feel like i'm climbing mt. everest and running out of oxygen tanks... ugh.. mann.. today got me swearing like a crazy mofo and i promise the gf that each time i curse.. i would give up 25 cents to my curse jar... ehhhhhh...... i dont want to know how much i got in there now.. its just got bigge today... loord i think i stuck in... 3 dollar worth??.. it was badd.... ugh...

the whole day.. i didnt even let out one smile and people were like.. "uhh..... you ok?" i dunnoo.. today was a mess...

when i got to my area.. i decided to just de-stress and wen to nearest pool bar and just play for a good 2-3 hours.. i called up some friends but just one was free.. and.. we were just there.. talking my shit out... i was loost... i had to get my priorities in check again... i got 14 days till test day and i need to know if this is really what i want to do..... for one.. it feels like i got no other choice.. the other i feel like i want to be a nurse.. mann.... i'm lost... i guess i'll figure that one out sooner or later.. whenever..

but yeahh... i'll keep what we talked about in the pool bar between the 2 of us soo.. yeahh..

theres other little things that bugged me out today and.. i dunno maybe i was just over reacting..

ok one of the things that really bugged me out today was when i text.. i just expect a reply back.. even if its like 1-2 hours.. after 3 i get all nervous ish.. you already know that..

i mean... it was the same as last night... you got home.. and from there i just didnt hear from you for a while and it bugged me out!.. and then the way you put it.. it felt like it was my fault that i didnt get to talk to you?.. i had no idea what you were doing and you coulda sent me a small txt.. a quick one? but no.. there was nothing.............

and last night.. you sounded bummed out and i just didnt know what to say... if you miss them.. you shouldnt just leave them like that.. no matter whos friend they are.. just keep in touch.. goshh.. its not like i'de say "no you cant talk to them" ?? soo go ahead.. i dunno maybe i was just over thinking the situation as well... god.. sometimes i do that and i cant help it... D:

ugh... i think i got myself a high tolerance to things like these.. but.. please, i just ask to be there for me when its my turn trip out... i try to always be there when things go bad, even if i'm just there to listen to you and your problems... even a nice quiet with occasional humming or lol even an "i miss u" or an "i lub you" would be realllyyy niiice............god i would lub that right now.. loll.. mann

dont get mad at me for saying all this.. :[

i'm done ranting...

i'm sorry again for today..

i feel like i was a jerk-ass with my txts earlier...

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i just saw soul men today.. and i really like that movie.. cheered me up and bernie mac... he'll be missed... damn.. he was a funny guy.. X] they really had some good oldies songs up on there.. lool.. i feelin this one song.. and.. ima make it my layout song.. "i'm your puppet"

ciaociao for now..

everything.. yup, thats what you are to me..

sooo yeahh, whats up whats up whats up?? its been a long week for me.. been just stuck up at the house because of snow and black ice. sooo yeah everything thing has been slow and i decided to take pictures of things around my work station. haha dang i'm bored..

LOL. eyy look its my monitor and tv. X]

me and booobie's convo? for some reason.. i took picture of it. X]

hats......................... ^__________^

the quarter tower... lucky ring... the portable clock.....

things inside my...... man-purse. :O

oh yeah! i recently got a second cell so that i can txt like a crazymofo to my boobie.. and uhh so farrrr.. its been ok.. i'm still getting used to having 2 cells in my pocket.. lol i sag a bit when i wear pants and 1 cell is sometimes enough to make it slide down a bit.. now with 2.. hahahaha.. sometimes you might get a glimpse of my goodies but eyy.. you only see it if you look soo.. dont look!! but yeah i'm originaly join up with verizon and then i joined my friends family plan on at&t and got me that sony ericson phone that everyone has.. but who cares.. it still looks much slicker than the one i already had. hahaha.. my black x black verzon is poop compared to the black x orange baby i got from at&t. ;D hmmm i pay 24 each moth for new phone soo it really isnt that bad. ^^

umm today, some friends came over with food and to just visit.. originally it was just suuposed to be one visiting.. but she needed a ride over to my area.. and thats now 2.. then.. others heard about the roadtrip.. they needed money for gas sooo others came along to pitch in for gass.. hahah we watched movies and had dinner here at my place.. it was too large of a group to really fit in my room.. there was all nine of us in the tiny room.. we watched Once Upon a Time in Mexico.. lol the one with antonio banderas.. whaha el mariachi.. he was my idol back when i was little! i wanted to play guitar like him and... the way he can turn his guitar case into weapon made me want to be like him even more! like.. mexican james bond! whahahahahaha.. lool after the movie we were just chillen.. hmm then they left and i tried to get some sleep but ended up watching this thing on the food network.. some competitive cooking thing. lolll it made me want to cook soo i cooked some dinner for auntie.. whaha.. tuna with my own kind of tomato sauce.. it was goooood!

ummmm.. after that.. i spent an hour watchign america's best dance crew.. i'm sad that boxcuttuhz got kicked out.. hmmm most of the crews were pretty good tonite.. hahah.. quest was funny tho.. go vote quest! txt 1 to 22444 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and right now.. my boobface is basking in the music of this guy on youtube.. aj something.. lol hes prettty goood.. i like it too soo go check him out some time.. just chill.. he can play guitar sing and play the piano!! whahah insane combo right there. ey ey ey ey heres his youtube thing.. lol go subscribe to him!

http://www.youtube.com/user/ilajil

ehh.. my nursing test is coming up on feb 25.. i hope i make it.. i need to pass to get into the program.. pray for me......................................

welll.. danng ive been at this thing for at least 3 hours now.. ahahha.. i got too much distractions.. i'm starting to get tired.. hmmm might call it a night sometime soon soo.. gnite aiight... :]<3>

.... my mistake. (o_O);;;;;;

ok.. hmm today was a pretty slow day, i woke up late from an early sleep. ((i apologize again for passing out on your phone calls and text last night baby, i was dead like a log last night)) I havent had such a dreamless, thougthless night sleep like that in a long time... i kinda dont like it.. usually.. my gf would be in it doing god knows what. lol.. or.. itd be some random thing like me being super hero... going to work with no pants on... things of those nature.. its hard to explain.. whaha but yeah... soo after class.. i just went to blockbuster and i got my favorite chickflick. "Definitely, Maybe"

see i dont think guys are supposed to have a favorite, but this one is different. I like it so much cause.. it kinda reminds me of some of the things i went through... lol.. specially with my boobface. plus.. isla fisher is hot. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

but yeah... I think in my younger more immature days.. i was a lil man-slut. X] i dunno what the actuall term they call a guy slutting around is.. gigolo? i have no idea.. but yeah.. i had so many gfs and.. i kinda laugh at how stupid and needy i was or something? i dunno why i had so many gf.. and i dunno why i'm so nice to them.. up to now they are still my friends.. i dont know why i dont have the usuall result of hating an ex or not talking to them at all... i just tend to be nice and have that forgive and forget kind of philosophy. its complicated-ish??.. ((how many times did i say "i dunno" in that paragraph??))

but yeah... back in the days, i met this boobface girl who stole me away from my current gf at that time and ever since then i thought she was the best thing that ever came across my path. But after time went by, it seemed that i was loosing her cause of school, stress and other guys giving her more attention?? well with all that going on in my head... some how i came up with the stupid conclusion that, i need to break it of with this girl now so that when things get worst she wouldnt get badly hurt.. so.. i broke it off with her... and.. ever since then.. she would pop in my mind and i would wonder what she was doing, or who shes is with.. i still had her number, but... i wouldnt dare give her a text or call.. i felt like i will disturb the peace if i did that.. soo i waited a loong time.. a really long time.. and realized it was the worst thing i could ever do to a girl i really liked...

in that time period.. i had other gf's.. but they werent the same.. i cant ever talk to those girls like the way i talked to that boob face.. it was a lame feeling each time she came in my mind cause shes probably out there livin the life with some hottie.. ugh... but eyahh.. after some more time.. i decided to actually start talking to her again.. i dunno why i did that but.. i think it was the best thing i ever did.. i made a terrible mistake letting her go back then... and i hoped and hoped that maybe there is a chance that i can still make up for what i did...

at first it was just little txt like "hi, whats up?" little chitter chatter then i would wait a while again and go and txt her again, i have no good reason for doing that... i have tendency to appear and reappear.. ><; but yeah after a while i started talking more and more again and.. then.. this movie came out.. it was like early 2008 when this movie came out and me and her were like good friends again.. and suddenly i saw this movie.. and.. it brought back all these frikkin gay emotions when i saw the guy kept running into his exes and all that drama in it and.. T.T.... it just made me think of boobface and what i did and exes and all that.. D: after watching that movie.. it got me thinking about her and i think i started to get that same old feelings i had for her.. i really liked her soo much back then.. and i just kept myself on the downlow cause at the moment she had a bf...

well to make this short and to try and get a point out ... lol... this movie.. brought out my gay feeligns for my boobface anddd now she still makes me feel lame each time she mentions what i did, but its working out at the moment, we may have our bad days but we manage to make it through... right now... shes sleepign on the phone while i'm typing this.. and im getting very sleepy.... sooooo.. i'll shut up now.. and call it a night. no more ranting...

lool btw.. the music playing right now is from that soundtrack of that moovie.. i think it sounds nice soo just.. enjoy it. :D ey ey ey ey you guys should watch it too. xD might bring out gay feelings aswell! whahahahaha

ciao ciao.. :]<3
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babe, i miss you and love you soo much...

Its a new start..

OHH kayyy.. i'm back lool, i dunno why i keep doing this at the start of each month butt.. oh well.. atleast i havent forgotten about this. ^^

ok hehehe its almost gonna be me and my girlpren's 7th month! hehehe... i love that boob soo much... hmmmmm her birthday is coming up too and omg soo many things going on! hehe but yeahhh shes gonna like the next package that she gets from me... ;]]]]

sooo for the last month ive been in break and for the most part all i did was bumm around and hang out with friends party out.. play games.. and talk to my baby boob bear every single night. hehe.. i miss her sooo much! i spent the days after christmass hunting down the boots that she wanted.. in the end i think im just buying it online. - -

mmmm... i saw the cool kids perform here in chapellhill and they were frikkin amazing. whahaha they were pretty legit.. cool kids for sure mann.. i got some pictures but i havnte uploaded them on pc yet.. i can seem to find the usb cable and my pc needs to get a memory card adaptor or soemthing but yeahh.. hmmmm.. what else happened... i cant remember that far... oh well..

well ok.. for somtehing new.. our very own FYSH clothing company's new winter line will be out on stores starting tomorow! (fri. 9th) whaha shit looks tiiight! i manage to get soem pichas of them so ima post some on here..

theres a problem tho... i dunno what they were thinking with the charlotte "hornets".... maybe they didnt hear the news but... charlotte isnt teh hornets anymore they are the bobcats.. @_@

welll what ever the case.. shit still loooks hot. buy one of the site aiight. its worth the moneyyy.. mhm just like my baby would put it.. "its good bingo!"

Go GET ONE! RWAR!

(( sheet.... i told my self i wasnt cursing anymore... thats gonna cost me.........sigh* ))