series of unfortunate events.. :[[[[

soo.. its been a long day for me.. i feel bad for being a lil jerk to gf earlier today.. ugh.. it just things were going wrong and yeah.. nothing helped out the situation...

soo ok first on the list of unfortunate events today was that my car got really dirty while i was driving.. for some unknown reason we have a light drizzle then the windshield starts to turn all gray and nasty looking and the water just didnt help soo when i got to the parking lot... instead of a white honda.. i had a salt and pepper nasty looking ride.. danm.. and i just cleaned it the day before!!!

and then on the way to school a few minutes after i saw my car windshield turn nasty.. i see this guy trying to merge into the road and he nearly took me out in the process.. i really think that the older people get they should just stop getting into cars or even think about buying one! damn mannnn this old lady.. i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! almost took me out of the road and into the other guy's car beside me... mann.. but yehh.. thats second incident..

third incident was when i was already at school and i needed to print out my project in the computer lab before i enter class.. i got there and the whole internet system of the school was down.. sooo i had to drive myself to the nearest library that was 15 minutes away and drive back and i was 30 minutes late to my class......that pissed me off..i hate coming into class late.. you just feel soo damn bad and it was better off that you didnt come in.. but i needed to turn it in...... ugh.. i think i need to buy myself a new printer.....

4th and 5th incident were frikkin pop quizzes in both of my last classes and... that just tripped me out.. after that i was soo pissed.. i was just not feeling it today...

i've been too stressed out lately.. i dunno what to do.. too many things in my mind and.. i dunno how to take them on one at a time.. it just seem to overwhelm me... i feel like i'm climbing mt. everest and running out of oxygen tanks... ugh.. mann.. today got me swearing like a crazy mofo and i promise the gf that each time i curse.. i would give up 25 cents to my curse jar... ehhhhhh...... i dont want to know how much i got in there now.. its just got bigge today... loord i think i stuck in... 3 dollar worth??.. it was badd.... ugh...

the whole day.. i didnt even let out one smile and people were like.. "uhh..... you ok?" i dunnoo.. today was a mess...

when i got to my area.. i decided to just de-stress and wen to nearest pool bar and just play for a good 2-3 hours.. i called up some friends but just one was free.. and.. we were just there.. talking my shit out... i was loost... i had to get my priorities in check again... i got 14 days till test day and i need to know if this is really what i want to do..... for one.. it feels like i got no other choice.. the other i feel like i want to be a nurse.. mann.... i'm lost... i guess i'll figure that one out sooner or later.. whenever..

but yeahh... i'll keep what we talked about in the pool bar between the 2 of us soo.. yeahh..

theres other little things that bugged me out today and.. i dunno maybe i was just over reacting..

ok one of the things that really bugged me out today was when i text.. i just expect a reply back.. even if its like 1-2 hours.. after 3 i get all nervous ish.. you already know that..

i mean... it was the same as last night... you got home.. and from there i just didnt hear from you for a while and it bugged me out!.. and then the way you put it.. it felt like it was my fault that i didnt get to talk to you?.. i had no idea what you were doing and you coulda sent me a small txt.. a quick one? but no.. there was nothing.............

and last night.. you sounded bummed out and i just didnt know what to say... if you miss them.. you shouldnt just leave them like that.. no matter whos friend they are.. just keep in touch.. goshh.. its not like i'de say "no you cant talk to them" ?? soo go ahead.. i dunno maybe i was just over thinking the situation as well... god.. sometimes i do that and i cant help it... D:

ugh... i think i got myself a high tolerance to things like these.. but.. please, i just ask to be there for me when its my turn trip out... i try to always be there when things go bad, even if i'm just there to listen to you and your problems... even a nice quiet with occasional humming or lol even an "i miss u" or an "i lub you" would be realllyyy niiice............god i would lub that right now.. loll.. mann

dont get mad at me for saying all this.. :[

i'm done ranting...

i'm sorry again for today..

i feel like i was a jerk-ass with my txts earlier...

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i just saw soul men today.. and i really like that movie.. cheered me up and bernie mac... he'll be missed... damn.. he was a funny guy.. X] they really had some good oldies songs up on there.. lool.. i feelin this one song.. and.. ima make it my layout song.. "i'm your puppet"

ciaociao for now..